Passover - Joy Division

This is a crisis i knew had to come,
destroying the balance i'd kept.
doubting, unsettling and turning around,
wondering what will come next.
is this the role that you wanted to live?
i was foolish to ask for so much.
without the protection and infancy's guard,
it all falls apart at first touch.
Watching the reel as it comes to a close,
brutally taking it's time,
people who change for no reason at all,
it's happening all of the time.
can i go on with this train of events?
disturbing and purging my mind,
back out of my duties, when all's said and done,
i know that i'll lose every time.
Moving along in our god given ways,
safety is sat by the fire,
sanctuary from these feverish smiles,
left with a mark on the door,
is this the gift that i wanted to give?
forgive and forget's what they teach,
or pass through the deserts and wastelands once more,
and watch as they drop by the beach.

You've gonna lose it...

YOU were my conscioence, so silent now you're like water. And we started drowning, not like we'd sink any farther. But i let my heart go, it's somewhere down the bottom. But I'll get a new one, come back from THE HOPE THAT YOU'VE STOLEN.
I'm only human, i've got a skeleton in me but i'm not the villain, despite what you're always preaching. Well you thought of straight dissolutions...that I liked attention, and not always knowing the answers.

And without you is how I disappear,

And live my life alone forever now.