~ Et Eärello Endorenna utúlien Sinome maruvan ar Hildinyar tenn' Ambar-metta ~

When this began i had nothing to say and id get lost in the nothing ness inside of me. I was confused, and id let it all out to find, that im not the only person with these things in mind. Inside of me. When all the vacancy the words revealed. Is the only real thing that i've got left to feel. Nothing to loose. Just stuck, hollow and alone, and the fault is my own and the fault is my own.
I wanna heal. I wanna feel. What I thought was never real. I wanna let go of the pain. I felt so long. Erase all the pain till its gone. I wanna heal. I wanna feel. Like im close to something real I wanna find something I've wanted all along. Somewhere I belong.
And i' ve got nothing to say. I cant believe i didn't fall right down on my face. I was confused. Looking everwhere only to find. That its not the way I had imagined it all in my mind. So what am i, what do i have but negativity. Cause I cant justify the way everyone is looking at me. Nothing to loose. Nothing to gain, hollow and alone. And the fault is my own and the fault is my own...


...I will never know. Myself until I do this on my own. And I will never feel, anything else, until my wounds are healed. I will never be anything until I break away from me. I will break away...i'll find myself today!

♥ He’s got a place in my heart ♥

¿Cuantas cosas Random puedo contar hoy?

♥ Ayer llegué de la escuela, feliz porque había dormido una hora más (entré mas tarde porque no fue mi profesora de Biología) y salí temprano, llegué a mi casita, mi madre me hizo una rica comida (aunque no tenía hambre, como siempre) y esperamos hasta las 15:30 para ver el partido. Yo no soy seguidora del futbol/football para nada, no me gusta de hecho, pero los mundiales me emocionan, asíque siempre los veo. Tampoco nunca dije "que orgullo ser Argentina" porque lo primero que quiero hacer es salir de este pais, pero, verlos ahí me emociona y es genial gritar los goles, y observar las tácticas de los jugadores. Si hay algo que me gusta del equipo Argentino es la forma en equipo en la que juegan, me encanta cuando se empiezan a pasar la pelota y marean al otro equipo, hahaha.

♥ Hoy fui la escuela, me desperté con buen humor. ¿Por qué será? ♥ Además me desperté con I don't Care - Apocalyptica , amo esa canción asíque me la puse de "despertador". En realidad, no necesito despertador, ya que tengo uno interno, pero...bueno, por si el interno falla.

♥ Ahora son las 13:30 de la tarde, estoy escuchando Coldplay y hablando con Millie :) Pensando en que voy a ponerme esta noche. Tengo mucha ropa, MUCHA, porque soy una consumista y lo admito, adoro comprar, comprar y comprar. Pero, ¡No sé que ponerme! Me frustra cuando me pasa eso. ¿Que me hago en el pelo? ¿Lo dejo todo cachuso como está? ¿Me pongo a Holmes o a Watson? (Holmes y Watson son los nombres de mis tapados, les puse así porque tengo la costumbre de a todo lo que me gusta mucho...le pongo nombre, por ejemplo, mi celular se llama Bill, sonará estúpido, pero me gusta ponerle nombre a las cosas, nombres de persona)

♥ Hoy en taller de Matemática y Biología, estaban hablando sobre...educación sexual y tal, asíque yo le agarré la mano a Millie y empezé a dibujarle como lineas curbadas y que se yo. ¡Quedó buenisima! Le dibujé toda la mano (léase: con marcador INDELEBLE VIOLETA xD) y nos empezamos a reír. Por dios. Ahora le está sacando fotos, si salen bien, subo alguna.

♥ ¡¡¡Quiero que ya sean las 7 de la tarde!!! No puedo creer que esté tan emocionada por...¿ir a ver a Helmut? Es que...es un genio.

♥ Bueno, ya no sé que decir. Voy a dibujar algo, a bañarme y a prepararme para el...gran momento (?), ahí se ven.

I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears. And if you have to leave, i wish that you would just leave, cause your presence still lingers here...and it won't leave me alone. These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real, there's just too much that time can not erase...When you cried, i'd wipe away all of your tears, when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears. And i held your hand through all of these years...but you still have all of me.
You used to captivate me by your resonating light. Now i'm bound by the life you left behind. Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams, your voice it chased away all the sanity in me...

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone. But though you're still with me, i've been alone all along...



You still have all of me ♥ I love you Heath.

...Don't move, don't talk out of time, don't think, don't worry, everything's just fine just fine. Don't grab, don't clutch, don't hope for too much, don't breathe, don't achieve or grieve without leave. Don't check just balance on the fence, don't answer, don't ask , don't try and make sense. Don't whisper, don't talk, don't run if you can walk, don't cheat, compete, don't miss the one beat, don't make a will. Don't fill out any forms, don't compensate, don't cower, don't crawl. Don't come around late, don't hover at the gate. Don't take it on board, don't fall on your sword just play another chord if you feel you're getting bored. Don't change your brand, don't listen to the band, don't gape get, don't ape, don't change your shape have another grape. Don't plead, don't bridle, don't shackle, don't grind, don't curve, don't swerve, lie, die, serve. Don't theorize, realise, polarise chance, dance, dismiss, apologise. Don't spy, don't lie, don't try imply detain explain start again. Don't triumph, don't coax, don't cling, don't hoax, don't freak. Don't collar, don't work, don't wish, don't fish, don't teach, don't reach. Don't borrow enough, don't break, don't fence, don't steal, don't pass, don't press, don't try, don't feel, don't touch...

I told ya, baby! Hey, Im rocking out tonight cause I cant wait till tomorrow. Im a live my whole life, in the night cause I aint got time to borrow. Im rocking out tonight, why wait till tomorrow. Im a live my whole life in the night...

IM A ROCKSTAR

Hey baby...im a rockstar

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