I don't know who to trust. No surprise

Everyone feels so far away from me. Heavy thoughts set through dust,a nd the lies. Trying not to break but I'm so tired of this deceit. Every time I try to make myself, get back up on my feet. All I ever think about is this, all the tiring time between and how trying to put my trust in you, Just takes so much out of me.

I take everything from the inside and throw it all away, 'cause I swear for the last time I won't trust myself with you.

Tension is building inside, steadily. Everyone feels so far away from me, heavy thoughts forcing their way out of me.